I always start one of these and then update them like twice...and forget I have one.
but i'll try to keep this one more up to date..
I'm right in the middle of an eight day straight work week.....I feel like it's all i've done for the past two weeks is train for this job. I haven't really seen any of my friends. I know it feels like i've kinda abandoned them...which I haven't....but i basically get up go to work come home and sleep...and since i haven't had a paycheck in almost 3 weeks i've been stretching my funds to make ends meet.
I dont feel a little more put out by guys everyday. I finally start to see why certain people just say fuck it and dont date or fall for anyone...and would rather be by themselves than even try anything with anyone else. People can be cruel and horrible. I would rather be alone than throw myself to the wolves again and again. I don't think it's too much to ask to want a decent person who does't expect me to support them financially and has goals and wants to do something with their lives. or maybe these days it is. who knows. I just know that everyday it gets a little harder to give anyone the benefit of the doubt.....
my song for the night...
"Like Knives"
City and Colour
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